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Calling All Angels

Written by: Karisha Longaker
 

Calling all angels
Here to guide you
Calling all angels
To surround you
Calling all angels
To walk beside you
Love may you walk
On solid ground
On solid ground

All of your cards
Are out on the table
Each of your bags neatly packed
Horses are drawn and out of the stables
Now there is no looking back

Each in our own
Each one in our time
Will find our way back to the source
Know as you go
I am right here behind you
Loving you living your choice

Calling all angels
Here to guide you
Calling all angels
To surround you
Calling all angels
To walk beside you
Love may you walk
On solid ground
On solid ground

Goodness Is

Written by: Sarah Nutting
 

If I plant a garden
Will you plant your feet?
And on the path of least resistance
We’ll meet to greet
The sun as she rises
And warmly speaks
Gonna shine on ya
Till the day is done
Shine on you
Till the day is done.

And we’ll follow the worn path
Down to the creek
Where the ducks are there
Backpaddling
And the water is rising
Uprooting trees
It’s what it is
Who knows what’s to come
What it is
Who knows what’s to come

Moving in circles
The cycles of moon
Help us out
Moving in shadows
Those cavernous places of doubt
Moving, each own one
To a rhythm… comes back around
Comes back around
Comes back around
Comes back around

No need to do it alone
I will help with the watering
And all the pulling of weeds
And when the fruit comes,
Big baskets for the harvest
Pass them around,
There’s plenty
And in all ways
Love is made
And the sun soon will find her way home
And the birds in the treetops
Sing an evening serenade
No need to fear the darkness
No need to fear the darkness
No need to fear the darkness, 
They say, they say

Moving in circles. . .

And we’ll plant a garden
And we’ll plant our feet
And we’ll grow the love between us
Dancing
And we’ll learn to listen
As the other speaks
Goodness is, and goodness is to come
Goodness is, and goodness is to come
Goodness is…………

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

Constellations

Written by: Karisha Longaker
 

Well here we go
Around again
And back we’ve come
Still here I am
This is non-random
Tandem orbit
We’re forever kin
I’m right here with you
Oh holy holy
And blessed be
I am your friend
You are to me
A most precious stellar partner
Dancing love’s geometry
With me again and again and again and again

Everywhere you go
I’m right here with you
Everywhere you go
I’m right here with you
In case you needed to know
If I was here
I’m right here with you
We’re like the stars in the sky
We are made of light
And just like you and I
They are closely tied
We’re of the same constellation
That’s how we make it through the night
I’m right here with you.

We made a vow
Kept it right from the start
To help extract the poison
From our medicine hearts
I just want to thank you
For doing your part
I promise you that
I’ll always do mine

So in all our motion
We’ve made a web
Our patterns is woven
We’re common threads
There is nothing you could do
To shake me loose
I’ve got you
I’ve got you
I’m not leaving

So go climb your mountain
And know your name
The call you answer
Springs from the same flame I do
And as you take your leap
Just know that fall or fly into the deep
I’m right here with you

Everywhere you go
I’m right here with you
Everywhere you go
I’m right here with you
Case you needed to know
If I was here
I’m right here with you
We’re like the stars in the sky
We are made of light
And just like you and I
They are closely tied
We’re of the same constellation
That’s how we make it through the night
I’m right here with you.

Everywhere you go
I’m right here with you
Everywhere you go
I’m right here with you
In case you needed to know
If I was here
I’m right here with you

Hard To Handle

Written by: Karisha Longaker
 

Hard to handle
Heavy like a stone
I am walking hand in hand
With the most tender thing
I’ve ever known

They say what doesn’t kill you
Makes you stronger
The bitter truth is that
This has...
You came in
Took without asking
Probing and grasping
Left your mark upon my path

Wake me when it’s over
Is the anthem of my past
Now new love has
Turned the light on
So I can see
What’s in the looking glass

This has been going on
Since the invention of time
Angry hands, broken hearts
Have passed down
This violent crime

And because I understand
I can forgive
So far, I can’t forget
I will not nail you
To the cross
What do I do with this?

Oh...

I am born to love
Feeling it all
I am born to love
Feeling, feeling
I am born to love
I will feel it all

I am taking back my passion
I was meant to ride it wild and free
Undefended pure devotion
To the most subtle yes and no
In me

They might never understand it
I know now it’s not their job
I’ll make it mine
To take good care of
Every little bit that ever
Needs my love

I am born to love feeling
I will feel it all
I am born to love feeling, 
Feeling, feeling
I will feel it all

Hard to handle
Steady I will go
I am walking hand in hand
With the most tender thing
I’ve ever known

So Sweet

Written by: Sarah Nutting
 

Snow fell cold today
They said spring was on its way
Winter’s not over yet
Sweet ambrosia singin’
And our echos ring out clear
Beneath all the cars and bikes and
People walkin dogs
Our voices were minglin’
Ooooh
Minglin’
And it’s so sweet
So sweet
I haven’t met you yet
But I can feel ya
God must be dreamin up
Something good
So I followed my heartbreak
Followed my trail of heartache
Down to the river
She said love’s not what you get, Girl
It's what you got to give……
And it’s so sweet
So Sweet
I haven’t met you yet
But I’m willing to bet
You taste fine
Taste fine

Like a ripe cherry
Like a sweet strawberry
Like a juicy, juicy peach
Fresh from the heat
Of the summertime

These songs, they come and go
My love my love my love my love
My love, knows no end
I’ll know you when I know ya
Til then I know, I know I know

I’ll know my own
Sweet love makin’
Oooh
Love making’
Oooh
And it’s so sweet
So sweet
I haven’t met you yet
But I’m willin to bet we're
Right on time
On time

So Lady Spring,
Go on sway your hips
And we’ll try to do like you do
Lady Spring, go on
Sway your hips now
Cuz we like to sway our hips too
And it’s so sweet
So sweet
So sweet
So sweet
So sweet
So sweet
So sweet
Ah ha oh
Right on time

Love Poem

Written by: Karisha Longaker
 

When I die
I ain’t gonna die afraid
All my life’s a little love poem
To my grave
A little love poem
To the ground
Where I’m from
Where I’m bound to go
Ohhh

When I die
I ain’t gonna die ashamed
All my life’s a little love poem
To my name
A little love poem
To the Ones
Who came before
And those
Who’ve yet to be
They’re all me

All around me
I hear Spirit calling
From both near
And distant stars
Singing
Lovelight’s what you’re made of
Friends, 
You are not what you think
You are
Oh, you’re a star

Someone could take
A big red pen and
Draw a line through
My life today

Circle ‘round the places
Where they say
I’ve done it wrong
I don’t imagine
That they could know
What’s right for me
They can’t hear my
Inner song. . .

When I die
I ain’t gonna have regrets
‘Bout all the ways
I never let myself love yet
I’m a little love poem
Walking around
Doing my best
Moving to the sound
In my chest

All around me
I hear Spirit calling
From both near
And distant stars
Singing
Lovelight’s what you’re made of
Friends, 
You are not what you think
You are not what you think
You are
Ohhhh
You’re a star

When I die
I’ll be smiling, laughing, singing, shining
Love

Perfect As You Are

Written by: Sarah Nutting
 

Enter as you came here, Child
Perfect as you are
See the doorway open wide
Perfect as you are

And enter as you came here, Child
With only one thing to do
Is to love yourself
So damn wild
Only one thing to do

And all the Guardians are
In your favor
The Moon recalls
What you gave her
Your light to reflect
Upon the waters
Perfectly, perfectly
Perfectly, perfectly
As you are

Enter as you came here, Child
No need to say a thing
Your heart is open
Rest inside
Your Presence is
The Gift you bring

And a song will join you
Right by your side
For this lifetime
With wings to soar
It’s the song that lit
Your soul afire
It’s the key to
So much more

And all the nighttime
Distills around you
Gentle Warrior,
Your heart has found you
At last this peace
Peace has found you
At last, at last
At last, at last
At last, at last
At last

At last, at last
At last, at last
At last, at last
We have arrived
We have arrived
We have arrived
We have arrived
We have arrived
We have arrived. . .

You're Not Crazy

Written by: Karisha Longaker
 

There was a fire in your home
The story that has left its wound
Of the lovers who fell down
And broke your heart
Now the crows cackle from above
And all the swords direct their points
And the walls on every side
Surround you
You’re not crazy

Oh, your dreaming mind
Is your alchemist
Equal parts fire and mist
Listen.
There is a message
In your hands
And the only one that can know
Your yes is the one that lives
Inside your chest
All those others are just
Chasing sand

You were born of a wild wind
Here to tear all the burdens down
Start anew with your own hands
Build it up from the very ground
You were born with a strong will
Equally matched by a warm heart,
Creative vision and a clear sight
You knew your work
From the very start
Oh, You’re not crazy
You’re not crazy
You’re not crazy
You’re just sad
You’re not crazy
Oh, I understand

Hey, remember we knew
It was gonna be this way
When we came

We are your family
We are alive and well
Go on
Let us cast our circle around you
We’re here to help you
We’ll pull you through
And the path you choose
Is bound to show you
All you ever need to know
You have the tools
You will be shown it’s true

You were born of a wild wind
Here to tear all the burdens down
Start anew with your own hands
Build it up from the very ground
You were born with a strong will
Equally matched by a warm heart,
Creative vision and a clear sight
You knew your work
From the very start
Oh, You’re not crazy
You’re not crazy
You’re not crazy
You’re just mad
You’re not crazy
Oh, I understand
Hey, remember we knew
It was gonna be
Hey, remember we knew
It was gonna be this way
When we came

Arms of Faith

Written by: Sarah Nutting
 

Everything is pulsing
With a sense of being
The Child has summoned
Our spirits to play
My life is a naked
Naked reaching
Into the unknown
Arms of Faith

I am travelin’ travelin'
On this road to nowhere
Ooowee how I love it
As it winds
Oh, I’m gonna get there
When I get there
Even if it takes
A little bit of time

Lately, lately I've been
Hangin’ with these feelings
I’ve been lovin’ up
The ones that hurt the most
And there’s nothing mystic
The feeling is revealing
Everything I need to know

And I am travelin’ travelin'
On this road of feelin’
Ooowee how I love it
As it winds
Oh, I’m gonna get there
When I get there
In my own good
Feelin’ time
In my own good
Feelin’ time

And through all this
Laughin’ and livin' and changin’
Lovin’ and cryin’
Constant rearrangin’
Through all this, all this
I’m still seein’ you, my friend
As you are, as you are
So clearly
So clearly
So clearly
Oh

I have been travelin’
On a road without answers
It is not paved
Nor fenced along the sides
So when I find myself
In the desert of all deserts
Though it’s a pathless path
A starless night
I will find my way
Pathless path
A starless night
I will find my way

And I am here
This place of freedom
Ooowee how I love it
As it winds
It’s a shared experience
A collective healing
Of the body, spirit, emotions
And mind
Of the body, spirit, emotions
And mind

And through all this
Laughin’ and livin’, changin’
Lovin’ and cryin’
Constant rearrangin’
Through all this, all this
I’m still seein’ you, my friend
As you are, as you are
So clearly
So clearly
So clearly
Oh

And I want to thank you
I want to thank you, oh
I want to thank you
Thank you, thank you, thank you

We are falling
We are falling
Into the
Arms of Faith

Pearls

Written by: Sarah Nutting
 

To the west, to the east
Above are flying south, the geese
North is there on the breath of the wind
Changing form
And a tender heart
Can build a solid shell
Into the seas where
The current swells
Waiting to be carried
By the waves of the
Coming storm

And the waves rose higher
Than the day did
And the fear
Penetrates the sun, but
A calmness brings a longing
Calmness brings a longing
Longing to return

We are pearls
We are pearls
Born little grains of sand
We are pearls
We are pearls
Born little grains of sand
Washed up on dry land
Trying to find our way
Back to water

And we are here to love
Not to behave, ivory refugees
On the banks of change
Learning to shine, 
Shine and let it go
So we can hold it back
Or let it flow
Each moment there
A choice unfolds
Water, teach me of your
Transparent ways
We are breathing each moment
Into the next
We are navigating through
These things we can’t expect
We are Human Spirit Pearls

We are pearls
We are pearls
Born little grains of sand
We are pearls
We are pearls
Born little grains of sand
Iridescent
Unaware of how much
Light’s reflecting

You were born to stay wild
Stay wild, Child, stay wild
We are born to stay wild, 
Stay wild, stay wild
Turning, returning, returning

To the west, to the east
Above are flying south, the geese
Teaching the ways of surrender
As the north wind bends her form
Teaching the ways of surrender
Teaching the ways of surrender
Teaching surrender
Teaching the ways of surrender
I am changing form

We are pearls
We are pearls
Born little grains of sand
We are pearls
We are pearls
Born little grains of sand
And more precious
Than we could ever
Understand.